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30 Seconds To Mars - Kings and Queens

Happiness

     I find it hard to think of anything to be sad about. I am tan finally, my natural color is coming back to my hair, Justin and I sex wise has never been better, and Justin and I relationship wise is damn near perfect. I would say the only thing that sucks is how bad I miss my parents and friends in Kentucky. I have no girlfriends yet considering I haven't been out much on my own, not at all really, unless it's walking, which I do every day. I'm down to 135, and when I got here I was 150. Being pregnant, I really need to put on some weight. I actually lied to the doctors the other week a couple pounds so they'd think I've gained weight. 

     I go back to the doc on Thursday, and then I get my 3D ultrasound scheduled, so I'm excited! My nails and hair have never grown this much, a perk to pregnancy, but I totaly have two little stretch marks on my tummy. For my tummy as big as it is, I don't understand how I haven't gained ANY weight. I eat a few times a day, small things, but still, and I non stop drink water. At least my baby is doing good, I heard her heartbeat and it was 148 I think? And she wouldn't quit moving when they looked at her. 

     I can't wait to hold her in my arms, I just  know she's going to be so beautiful, like her mommy, but probably prettier than me. Lord know in her ultrasound she already has my nose and these amazing cheekbones. She's going to be just perfect. I finally got to buy her an outfit :) I can't wait to buy her more! Justin has bought an electronic cigarette, so he's quitting smoking using it. It's a vapor, I think. I'm proud of him, but selfishly I'm more proud that he decided to get amazing at sex. Like AMAZING. That was always our issue, and I guess he just got over it? 

     Idk, if sex and walking really help you go into labor, expect miss Caelin in November rather than December. <3 you all, gotta quit getting distracted and write at least 5 pages of my book.

Reading

Well I just finished this book called Sweet Savage Love, by Rosemary Rogers. It was pretty darn good, read it in two nights. I loved the main character, Ginny Brandon, but her dude Steve Morgan is a grade A dousche... almost no redeeming qualities. What pissed me off is I guess when she wrote this, in the early 70's, it was totally cool to show all his affairs, but God help Ginny!  ~spoiler~ She's called a whore throughout the whole book, and even though she gets raped he shows no sympathy. I have written rape in my book as well, but it was just... different, I guess. Although I was graphic, you can feel her pain, and then my heroines love interest, for all his flaws, has quite a lot of good qualities. Maybe in the sequel to her books I'll like him better, but I kept wanting her to end up with someone else! All in all, it kept me intrigued until the end, so as unlikeable as he was, it was really a great, epic adventure! I would say nobody is perfect, and that people love them anyway. As with my characters, you may dislike them at times, but I show the good and bad sides. They're multi dimensional. One day I'll be published and you can see all that :) For now, I need to suck up some courage and query agents again. Getting denied a lot can really depress a girl!

Randomness....

Well, I am still writing! I'm gonna try and do NaNoWriMo this november, to give me a good kick in the butt writing wise before my bundle of joy and...well, poop comes! lol. I'm happy these days, really happy, with the exception of a couple random mood swings and my belly growing and starting to get in the way of things, like, say, the doorknob. :( Ouch! Anyway, I found a book I wrote right before I met Justin, I think i finished it when we started dating? You know, it's not bad! Not great, but not bad. It's a cowboy, Harlequin type romance, so maybe I'll see if I couldn't try and get that published under Harlequin, or Mira. As for my vampire book, I can see that being a BIG hit... but my all time favorite book is Fire Over The Sea (I bet someone has that name, I'm gonna be pissed!)

However, a very famous writer I know personally, she's written over fifty new york time bestsellers, told me that you sometimes need to put the one that's gonna sell out first, then, once you amke a name for yourself, you can get that other book published, the one you really love but isn't exactly mainstream. So I'm going with that. Publisher's aren't quite ready for abusive pirates, sadistic serial killers, a murdering sociopath daughter and plenty of cussing, fucking and abuse :) I am a sick, twisted girl.

Another thing that kinda sucks about pregnancy is no rough sex. He's so afraid to hurt the baby! It's not going to! I'm dying here. I love to be choked, love the whole male dominance thing, and now he's so worried about hurting me, we hardly have good sex! Very shitty. I'd say it's my only complaint. :( Am I gonna have to wait till six weeks after the baby to have good sex again? I am happy he cares so much, but it is a mood killer...

"Am I hurting you?"

"No, go harder!"

"I can't!"
lol.

Peace for now bitches :)

p.s. Random, but Ian Somerhalder is hot... and I just thought about that ;) So he deserves a mention!

Ticker :)